Well, Honestly speaking I was Eagerly waiting for this topic to write upon but then all i needed was a opportunity and believe me its has arrived at the right time. This is the topic that has totally given me an urge to write after such a long span of time, I mean you need a very strong reason to write upon a given topic which is almost tending towards impossible to continue. But then, writing about my love is itself a powerful feeling for me that now it has rapidly boosted my confidence level and has given me an urge to express those untold stories, those endless memories. I have been writing my diary since when I was 14 about the memories spends, the stories of my family from grandmaa, the new experiences and lessons of life, regularly and now those few ‘Drops’ of it reflects on my blog too and that has really makes easy me to recall those fairy memories whenever I missed them. So, lets get started.
Date: May 30, 1995
It was really an idyllic atmosphere full with the fragnance of love. The day when the world’s best unrivaled pairs are finally getting married, Yes my maa and papa’s marriage. It might sounds funny to you that I always wanted to watch those priceless moments and all the live action happening out there but how could remotely it would be possible for me? The wish I had was quite common but still.. It was indeed a great day for everyone but there was something unpleasant somewhere in both my grandmaa’s and my father’s heart that was surely killing them from inside. What was that? I mean its totally confusing. Marriage is something that is undoubetely a epitome of togetherness, love and affection. But what was that? That has more influenced on both of them. Its not that they were not happy, they are but still… Thanks to my grandmaa that have told me all the stories that had happened that time. without that, I would be impossible for me to convey to you all…
It all happened 5 months ago, Near about in January 1995 when we lost our Grandfather. Yes, that was the main reason behind their partial happiness. Believe me, For me Its been really a very difficult moments to express those moments and I still don’t know how to write? and what to write? The Emotion are getting of me right now. I feels so unlucky that I couldn’t even saw my Grandfather. How he looks? How he talks? It all happened much before when I was not even born. God has snatch the love, the pemper that I truly deserve. My Grandmaa is a best manager that I have ever seen. She is so good in hiding pain, one can’t even Imagine.
The Pain was continuously killing her from inside and she always bear a smile in front of other family members so that the pain doesn’t expand. You just can’t Imagine the kind of a women she is and its her main characteristics. Somewhere down the bottom of her heart she continously prays to return her husband but how was that possible? The Prayers, wishes still continues even after my Dad was married. The Time passes and passes and then one Day….
It was very dark in the night perhaps the darkest night of the year with wind flowing at its threshold. People had never ever seen such an enormous dark and kind of wind. It was hell scary experiences and on other hand, my Grandmaa has no effect of it she was still lost in the world of wishing and praying.. that night when my grandmaa slept. She saw a dream wiping and bagging from God to Return his purpose of living her husband and then then what she saw was Unexpected. She was a high luminated light slightly uncleared standing in front of her eyes and then said “Why are still weeping and bagging for you husband? I already just him back” and then………..
Date: April 18, 1996
I stepped down to earth. I was Born. Believe me it’s a true story. Now you would have known who would be the happiest person that time? Absoutely, My Grandmaa. Unbelievable isn’t it? That’s why my bond with my grandma is unrivaled. Despite of loving the members of family my closeness to my grandma is very Emotionally and inseparable. I don’t known the reason but still she is everything to me and I love her more than anything. She was and she will be always my first priority.
Words are less to describe the endless, Unconditional love I have got from her. She was the one responsible for having my Childhood a Golden Memory. I still remember those fairy, Scary stories I have listen in the lap of her legs. Now that I Have a chance, My Love this my small Tribute I’m giving you. I Can’t pay the amount of life you have gifted me. This is the time to confess that I’m here in Mathura for making your Dream come true. May be I’m far away from you but still you are in my heart.
Whenever I look back, all I see is my Grandmaa’s love, her sacrifices, her eternal love that she has always offered me. Now that I have an opportunity I just wanna Thank you from buttom of my heart for giving me all that I Want. You were and you are still unrivaled for me. Until you are there, I’m here surviving on this Earth. Without you I can’t even imagine my Life, my Love……